"For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared ahead of time for us to do." Ephesians 2:10

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Choosing to see the beauty in the brokenness

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3

KINTSUGI= literally means “golden repair.”

When we see something broken, we often see damaged goods. We see no value, and there is no beauty to be found more often than not. Therefore, we instinctively want to throw the damaged goods away. However, this is not so with the art of Kintsugi, the art of restoring (joining) something that has been broken and infusing it with gold lacquer, bringing "new life" to the object.


Kintsugi captured my heart in early 2021; this beautiful process takes the broken pieces of pottery that have been shattered and pieces them back together. There is no attempt to hide the damaged elements. Instead, the repair is illuminated with precious gold, allowing the light to shine through the cracks, making the item more valuable in its damaged condition than before. As a result, the restored piece of pottery had become stronger and more beautiful than before it was broken. Like the art of Kintsugi, God mends the brokenness in our lives and makes us stronger and more beautiful than before our healing journeys.




I am happy you are here! I would love to share a little bit of the story behind the beginning of Alabaster Heart and how the art of Kintsugi brings meaning to our tagline, "beauty in the brokenness." You will see how it relates to my story and even yours. Alabaster Heart was "birthed" out of a challenging season in my life, and like the art of Kintsugi, God took my shattered, broken pieces and gently picked them up one by one with His loving hands piecing me back together, just like the artist would with the pottery. We all have a story to share, and this is a part of mine, showcasing the One who mended my brokenness and set me free, illuminating His glory.


All of us have some sort of brokenness in our past that has formed who we are. Our wounds and healing are part of our history—a part of who we are. But, whether it's from choices we have made or circumstances beyond our control, sometimes we find ourselves so profoundly broken that we don't know how things could ever be restored. I found myself in the latter group several years ago. I was drowning in deep hurt, chronic stress, and anxiety for two solid years. It was pretty intense during those years on a daily basis. Everything seemed upside down, and nothing made sense. As time passed, I felt utterly broken and, at times, shattered. It was a season I would not have chosen to walk through, but God led me into and through that season of "wilderness" for His purpose and has since turned what the enemy meant for evil for good. 

As you join us here at AHM, you will be inspired to go deeper in your walk with Jesus in all seasons of your life and encouraged to cling tighter to His love during the more challenging seasons in your life, finding beauty in your brokenness. You may ask, "How can she say there is beauty in brokenness?" Oh, sweet friend, I wish we were sitting with one another, sipping our coffee or tea together. Our brokenness is not where the beauty is. That portion is complicated, messy, and ugly. Our hurts and struggles are difficult to walk through. No, there is no beauty in that. We know that is a depth we don't want to travel to again if we can help it. 


The beauty in your brokenness is Jesus. He is in the midst working, picking up your broken pieces, ever so gently with His love, grace, and tender mercies. It surely does not feel like it, but there is purpose in your pain. How do I know this? How can I speak so confidently about this? I have walked through a deep season of brokenness where my world was turned upside down, and my heart felt shattered. In that season, God turned my pain and hurts into praising Him. I chose to sit in His presence and praise Him for His goodness, even when I did not feel like praising Him. Even when I did not fully understand why things were happening the way they were. Even when I didn't know what the end of the day would hold, I chose to praise Him still. As I invited Jesus into my brokenness and hurt, something beautiful happened. In those precious moments, He met me where I was and started picking up my broken pieces. The Spirit began to fill my cracks with His joy, peace, comfort, and deep compassion. I learned how to dance to the heartbeat of my Father in the valleys. He was mending my brokenness and ultimately bringing healing and restoration into my life. During that season, I learned the true heart of worship; my faith strengthened as I leaned into God, knowing Him deeper.


God took that period of time in my life, and He renewed and restored my spirit. God used that season in my life to refine me, remold me, and draw me closer to Him. He used my pain for His purpose. As a result, I have the golden scars that remind me that my brokenness brought me to Him. My golden scars remind me that He will use my story of healing and redemption for His glory, for His good. I am thankful for my golden scars because I am not the same person, and I would not know God the way I do now.

God takes our broken pieces and puts them together to display His glory and bring honor to His name. People will see evidence of God's healing and restoration powers in the cracks and scars we hold. No matter what breaks you've experienced, your "cracks" are beautiful. You are stronger because of them. It is Jesus' strength and His beauty that shines through your cracks for the world to see. Let me encourage you; the beauty is in each mended crack, whether it is a soul saved, a healing that has taken place, a stronghold torn down, an addiction that has been broken, or a deliverance. Every piece that God picks up and mends in your life speaks to the lost. Each beautiful gold mended crack illuminates His light and speaks of who He is, what He's done, and what He's continuing to do in your life. Your healing and restoration shout from the rooftops of His glory for those He wants to reach through you.


So, my beautiful friend, keep marching forward. There is purpose in where God has you right now; even if it doesn't feel like it. Look for Jesus in the midst of all the hard! God is creating a magnificent, beautiful masterpiece out of you! He is the Artist who sees the entire canvas and delights in you. I encourage you to invite Jesus into your hurts. Let Him use you and your imperfect flaws because His specialty is using broken people to reach a lost, hurting, broken world.


When we can stop being ashamed of our past, failures, hurt, and guilt, we can start showing how a cross on Calvary's hill has redeemed us. That, my friend, is where the beauty and power of Jesus Christ is revealed. Broken hearts can be reclaimed, healed, and restored by a loving Savior who creates beautiful stories of redemption out of broken pieces for His glory! 


God has instilled in my heart, in the heart of AHM's team, a passion for helping women experience the joy and freedom of Jesus Christ. A passion for knowing Jesus and making Him known. A desire to help others see the beauty in their brokenness and deepen their walks with Jesus.


May you be blessed and encouraged as you connect with our ministry and engage in our online community. Our hope and prayers are that this ministry will always bring honor to the name of Jesus Christ and that God will use it for His glory, bringing healing and freedom into the lives of all the hearts He wants to touch. So, let's link arms and cheer one another on as we seek God finding the beauty (Jesus) within our brokenness, for He alone is worthy of it all!

"For we are to God the pleasing aroma of Christ among those

who are being saved and those who are perishing."

2 Corinthians 2:15


In His love, 

You can learn more about the meaning behind the name "Alabaster Heart" here.

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